I almost committed suicide 10 years ago, at the age of 25. I was still young, thankful for the fountain of youth, and working in banking. I was also an independent business owner with no children.
Now 35, I have more blessings (two beautiful girls) and I’m thankful for where my journey brought me. I grew and didn’t give up when people failed me or when I failed myself.
I didn’t give up because people didn’t see my purpose. I know everyone won’t understand me and that’s OK. People love me and people hate me and that is OK. I did not love myself and my life for so long that none of what people say or do matters.
Oh, but now I love myself! I love myself and I am thankful for that love, I am so blessed.
I have healed on levels that needed to be worked on.
Not feeling loved and wanted didn’t affect me as much as not loving and wanting myself. I have and will always battle myself. I’m so happy that my thirties are different from my twenties. There is loss and pain but still much to gain. I am so blessed to see how I turned things around and made so many changes for myself.
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Suicidal thoughts are something many people experience but few feel comfortable discussing. If you are feeling similar to what has been expressed in these verses, here are several ways you can instantly connect with someone to talk about it for free:
Call 1-888-7-WE-HELP (1-888-793-4357) for D.C. operators or 1-800-SUICIDE (1-800-784-2433) for national operators. Text CONNECT to 741741 in the United States or visit www.ImAlive.org to chat with someone online.
Dialing 911 is always an option if you or someone else is in danger.
